37 Weeks!

35 Weeks!!

34 Weeks

Well its been 34 Weeks and I'm excited and anxious for Aliyah to arrive. Nothing has been that new. just waiting....

Passed the 33 week Mark!

HOLY COW. I got huge. Well, I have been extremely busy lately so I guess it's fill in time. Everything is going on schedule. I had my doctors visit Wednesday and have another next Tuesday. Aliyah is as active as ever. The doctor told me to watch my weight but I am majority belly.

Working on baby shower stuff, and hopefully that goes by smoothly. Well my kindle is erasing everything I type so I am about to throw it against a wall. Will update more soon.

oh! & she finally flipped head down! :)

Woah Baby Baby. 32 Weeks!

Well, to catch up... Aliyah is super active and I' m very excited about that. She wakes me up and doesn't stop moving until I eat something in the morning. With 8 Weeks left, I' m starting to get anxious that by a miracle things go on schedule. 6 Weeks until the baby shower, 7.5 until Tim comes home, and 8 until I am due. Nervous and excited and I just can' t wait to hold her already. I' m just soaking up the last days I will be able to relax in years.

I need to go shopping for clothes because they do not fit at all, and I need to go shopping for baby shower prizes. Lots to do left, little time!

Catching Up

Well let's see....it's been a few days since I posted due to working and sleeping, considering nowadays those two go hand in hand in ratio. I feel like I have a big balloon under my shirt all the time, that wiggles all around. I have been trying to keep up my food intake, but it seems like I' m never eating enough. Hopefully by next week, I will have gained some.

Aliyah is as a squirmy as ever. She reacts to different voices, and to when I'm upset. When I'm upset, she will toss and turn momentarily and it'll fade. When she recognizes a voice, she goes CRAZY. I'll be at work with someone and she'll hear and have a dance party.  When I skyped Tim, as soon as he talked, it was like she had a trampoline in there. Probably because she got so used to his voice when he was home.

Baby shower invites were sent out and hopefully I will get people to go haha. It should be a fun time with a small group of friends and family.

People, especially today, have been saying how I can pull off being pregnant, how I'm glowing, and how I look so "radiant". In my mind it' s more like, I' 've gained 40lbs and love food....wish it was this way when I wasn't pregnant haha.

31 Weeks

31 Weeks!!!!

Well, just around 8-9 weeks left! It' s all going by so fast. Surprisingly, in two weeks haven' t gained anything, but she for sure is growing and moving around. Very excited!!

Baby Appointment

Had my baby appointment today, and finally saw the doctor after waiting an hour and a half due to people being late for their appointments this morning. So far so good. She grabbed my stomach and told me that Aliyah is breech at this point which is nothing to worry about since she' 'll be turning, or should be turning, in a couple weeks. The bad part? I can feel each tiny kick into my bladder and it makes me want to per my pants all the time haha. My tummy measurement was 31cm which is right on track. The only concern was that in the past two weeks I have gained no weight when I should have gained at least 2 pounds minimum. I have been eating like crazy, or so I think, but I' m never really hungry so I guess I will just have to eat more.

In other news, invitations are completed and to be sent. AND 31 Weeks tomorrow!!! :)

Nausea

Well, my sleep was HORRIBLE for today. I ended up getting around an hour with too much on my mind. I went to work for 4 hours which felt like 10. This back pain is absolutely killing me along with the nausea. The nausea comes mostly in the morning and night, which is annoying when I want to sleep.

On the cute side, Punkin now has stolen my pregnancy pillow and claimed it as her own. This includes mandatory snuggle periods and naptimes, which obviously I do not mind.

Tomorrow is my baby appointment, so I'll update that tomorrow with any information, and baby shower invites will also be in the works tomorrow! Well, time to throw up and go to bed haha.

Mother-mode

My day... let' s see....I got into a really weird mood where I felt like doing something the spur of the moment, so combine that with a craving, and you get two dozen cookies. While I was in process of baking, Punkin started barking towards something outside and there was this GIANT German shepherd running around almost getting hit by cars and I noticed it didn't have a collar. I' ve seen this dog two other times, so I' m not sure if it lives around here or not but looks older. It didn't show any form of aggressiveness towards the slowed cars with their Windows down ans actually looked like it was comfortable with people and doing it' s own thing. I was just worried for It' s safety, so I made a decision to try to coax it (probably a dumb decision but oh well) because the last thing I wanted to hear or see was a dog yelping from getting hit. So I tried calling it, using food, but it just find' t work and before I knew it, he just went on his way down the street. Maybe he was scared of the ferocious 17 lb dog in the window. Who knows.

So I went back to baking, but some country music on, and danced while finishing up while washing all the dishes . Afterwards, I sat down to relax but Aliyah was still dancing and ended up kicking off a piece of Apple I was going to eat off of my stomach. The rest of the day was pretty relaxing.

Well, now to get some sleep for work in the morning.

Getting Bigger!

31 Weeks Thursday!

                                 The reason why my tank top doesn't fit anymore :p

Reoccurences

Well, today has been....fun. I was visited by an old friend: morning sickness. I had it in the beginning up to 22 weeks, then I thought I reached the promise land. Unfortunately for me, when I woke up at around 7:10am, it hit like a train.

So my original scheduled shift at work was 8am-1 pm, and I figured it would be a piece of cake day. I go in still sick since the 3rd, hoping it would be easy because I have a day off tomorrow where I can rest up some more. Well, someone called off for being sick and they expected me to then stay until 4:30pm. My manager called work on her day off, said that I can work it because I "called off" aka: had a doctor' s excuse to rest due to the horrible cold, and "could finally pull my weight around here." Well, not only did I have morning sickness, I had cramping and back pain, which is why I no longer can work (stated by the doctor) 8/8 &1/2 hour shifts. I' m sorry, but where was everyone when someone took thanksgiving week off and I originally was scheduled for 26 hours, and ended up pulling 40? Sorry, but I' m sick, 7.5 months pregnant, in pain, and had no food with me. Yea, no way in hell happening.

Then after work at 1, I went out to lunch with my lovely uncle and mother where him and I stuffed our faces with delicious food from Primanti' s. Afterwards, I had a food induced coma for 3 hours, but as soon as I woke up, I had the feeling of ' morning' sickness again. Hope this doesn't become a trend of sleeping then waking up feeling sick again...but at least Aliyah is kicking and punching along.

Well, that should end the night. Oh, and yes, I miss Tim dearly.

Anxiety

Okay, so I' m a hypochondriac and I admit it. I have irrational fears everywhere from elevators to semi- trucks. This pregnancy though has brought out the worst of my worries. I worry about Aliyah' s development and her health the most. I have grown so attached to the little bigger that the thought of anything happening to her tears me apart. I know it's not good to have all these worries and to get stressed out about it, but there are constant questions like am I eating right for her, am I taking all the proper steps, do I need to do more? It just keeps me on my toes and every time she kicks makes me a happy mommy to calm my fears. I love my little giraffe so much already and I just want to do things for the best interest of her. When I see all these mothers to be being irresponsible and doing things for their self interest it sickens me and I can't imagine doing those things. Like the fellow employee who smokes while pregnant. You already have one child and now you think you are responsible enough to have another? Being a mother isn't a right, it's something that you have to be willing to commit to.

Being pregnant changes you and there is a little miracle that you now need to worry about.

Photo for Comparison

Took this at 30 weeks for comparison...

AND THEN Punkin started whining because she wanted her picture taken haha

Too Stressed

Woke up from a dream of my shower being a bust and my relationship going south. Lovely thoughts to start the morning. Watch out world, this pessimistic attitude is a dangerous thing; it usually causes more trouble than good. We'll see.

Venting

The hormones seem to be raging today. It feels like every single person I interact with brings about some sort of emotion. It' s kind of really annoying and I realize it but can't do anything to help it. After being cooped up for a week in my room, I just basically want someone to talk to. I guess I'll get that from my coworkers being I really don't feel like bothering anymore people, and the only place I have a chance to talk to someone else is work. Too bad I am off tomorrow and have to wait until Saturday. Meh, oh well.

Still am sick but it' s getting better. I wouldn't doubt if I got sick again with the amount of customers coming in being sick with either the cold or flu so you see them runny eyes, nose is red, groggy with a Kleenex in one hand and their money in another. This ought to be fun.

Aliyah is moving all around and has decided that she likes to jump around. Every single time I lay on my side, she takes that as an opportunity to jump on my mattress. I can feel her on one side with the mattress, and can see her go up and down on my other side. She's now more comfortable moving around when I' m up and around, or at least it' s more prominent. My ribs can tell you that. I now officially waddle and can' t bend over without the repercussions of kicking. Currently, she has the hiccups which have been more frequent in the past few days.

I was still having issues with the whole financial aid from past semester, in which I wasn't going to receive any aid and PSU corrected my fafsa so I wouldn't get anything . This lead to a good one hour on the phone and then they brought my case to Penn state's director in which they informed me that it'll be fine and they'll fix it. Just will take a week or so to process so I can get my refund. HOPEFULLY.

Baby shower is coming along.Slowly but surely. Just am getting hung up on a few things and it' s stressing me out a bit because I have a tendency to be a control freak and to have not only my opinion heard, but to have my full dictatorship in the matter haha.

Right now I just feel extremely needy, and having a hard time with the transition of Tim at school again. It's difficult when you get used to something so easily and you love the feeling of being comfortable that it changes yet again. It' s also very difficult to have him away at this time because it' s difficult to express the pregnancy and just gets me frustrated. I' m also worried that Aliyah will either arrive early or late so he wouldn't be able to be there. That' s probably my biggest fear that he won't be there, because that' s one of the things that I want most in the world.

Well, to end the night playing with my kindle in solitude. Meh.

30 Weeks!

This is either really creepy or really cool, maybe even a combination. So on my 30th month of my relationship, I am 30 Weeks which is ironic. She' s growing so fast and time is passing at what seems like the same rate. Soon!

2.5 years! :)

Well it's been 2.5 years and if someone told me what roads it would have took to get there, it would have seemed like a lot of work. It hasn't been easy. We had the ups of falling in love, having a great friend by our side, and being a support system for each other. In contrast, our lows of doubts, long distance, and health issues have caused problems in the past. We have had hurdles thrown at us, but have managed to eventually pull together as a team. He is the ying to my yang and we are at a very happy place right now. I couldn't be happier. Love is a great gift given to the few but sought by the many.

The Countdown

Well, today was somewhat eventful. I had to take advantage of my mother going out today, so even though I still feel like poo, I had to get things done. So I booked the venue, got decorations, received a catering menu, and am in process of invitations and banner. Granted, it didn't go originally as planned, but things never do.

30 Weeks tomorrow!! My guess is that she'll come early, so I' m guessing 9 more weeks which gives me a countdown of single digits. The final countdown is on and final preparations are being made!! :)

Goodnight

Well, not much to talk about tonight. I took some robitussin for my cold which is helping a tiny bit, but my throat is hurting and stinging. Aliyah is just crazy tonight and it feels like she' s doing cartwheels which is great news; she kicked so hard at one point that she knocked my kindle off my tummy haha.

I've been extra hormonal lately, such as today when I was on the verge of crying from jello. I suck at making jello. Not to mention without the presence of Timothy, I just wanna curl up into a ball sometimes. Almost two and a half years, and it has just flew by, which leads me to missing him so much and it just puts a relationship into perspective.

Well, now to finish up the night with a little tv and texting Tim.